Day 53 - The ''I Don't Know'' Character

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the done know character to suit my needs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when i look wit hin myself to find the source of a point and i say i do not know then it is me not wanting to see the point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I write or look at something to write I go into character and the say I do not know what to write

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i created this character and that i created the point of not knowing from not wanting to face myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to claim ignorance and say I did not know that i am creating all this - even though the proof is all around me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take self responsibility by stopping this character and to start pushing through the resistance and get to the points and stop claiming ignorance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this character as a defensive mechanism to protect my ideas of myself who I believe I am - not realizing that who i believe i am is not real

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that all i am is characters that i created based on my environment, parents and media and that I decide nothing and have no say in what I do and that these characters directs my life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of these characters so that I can become real and self directed and longer be controlled by my beliefs and ideas that only harm life and are based on self interest

I commit myself to delete the i don't know character

I commit myself to realize that i do know and that it is me not wanting to push through the resistance to face the point im working on

I commit myself to realize that I can never run out things to write about because of the magnitude of the problem we face on this world that represents what is going on inside of me

I commit myself to take self responsibility by stopping to claim ignorance and start acting

I commit myself to become real and stop ignoring the problem we face in this and find ways to stop it

I commit myself to dedicate myself to stop and delete all my characters so that i can become real and self directed

I commit myself to stop the belief and idea of who i am and to see that it is not real