Day 305 - You really cannot Save This World

Nope, That is Impossible.

But There is something else you can do - have a listen.










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Day 116 - Being a RockStar

 

Sometimes when I listen to songs I image that i am the person who wrote the song and singing the song. I imagine i am playing in front of a huge stadium performing the song i am listening to. Mostly because it makes me feel good - when i was in school i u sed to do this allot - put the song on the hi-fi loudly and rock out in my room. I Liked doing this also, because I could really express what I felt by rocking out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I listen to songs to imagine that I wrote the song and am singing it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to imagine that i am performing this song live on stage rocking out in front of thousands of people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep on imagining this, because it makes me feel good

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine myself playing in front of allot of people and them liking me, because I want people to like me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in my want to be special and important to imagine myself being a rock star

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am inferior and thus i dream about play ing on stage where i will be better than everybody else

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i do not need to be special or important or better than others, but that it is a believe than i must compete with other people.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of these delusions and rather focus on my music to become more effective within it.

I commit myself to stop imagine that i wrote the songs i listen to when i did not

I commit myself stop imagining that I am playing in front of thousands of people when i listen to songs - i realize it is me wanting to be special that i do this

I commit myself to stop wanting to be special - instead I realize that nobody is special

I commit myself to stop wanting people to like me - I can see how fucked up i am inside which means other people are also fucked up inside and thus there is no point to want other to like me

I commit myself to let go of these delusions and to realize that by imagining  it i become lost in

my feelings and emotions constantly thinking about what ifs and dreams that are impractical.  

Day 70 - The Hope Character

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the Hope Character to help me cope with life and to not make it seem so bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in this character use hope when i do not want to the actual work when wanting something done but to instead simply hope it will get done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that I will feel better tomorrow instead if realizing that if i do nothing then nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that the hungry people in the world will get fed - not realizing that if i do not do something about it and only hope then nothing will happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that everything will be ok tomorrow - not realizing that if I do not move myself and find the solution to my problems then nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Hope I pass the exams when i did not prepare myself effectively and thus abdicated responsibility 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i give away my self responsibility when i hope and do nothing but hope

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that simpl y hoping will get things done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that with hope the things i hope for will magically happen without me having to do anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use hope as an excuse not to have to do anything, because hoping for something is really easy - instead of realizing that i cannot just hope and then do nothing - i have to create physically that which I hope for 

I commit myself to stop the hope character and realize that it is useless to hope

I commit myself to realize that when I do a task and complete in my mind and hope it will be as it is in my mind without realizing that the physical reality is not the same as my mind  it is useless

I commit myself to realize that hoping some task will be done without me actually doing something and physically moving then it will not happen

I commit myself to realize that hoping i will feel better tomorrow without me finding the problems and working them out and finding solutions then i will still be the same and nothing will change

I commit myself to realize that hoping the hungry people will be fed is useless - because if i do not do something about it then nothing will happen

I commit myself to realize that hoping is an excuse and me not wanting to do any actual work because hoping is very easy

I commit myself to take self responsibility by stopping the hoping for something by doing the actual physical action required in order to get something done

I commit myself to realize that hoping for something will not make it magically be so unless i do something about it

Journey To Life Day 31 - Being Overwhelmed

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel overwhelmed - that everything is too much for me handle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world is a gainst me and out to get me when everything seems to go wrong

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself when things go wrong seeing myself as a failure and not being good enough and experiencing unworthiness when things get tough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience hopelessness when i believe that I cannot face what is here and to get lost in the magnitude of the problem we are facing here on earth before we can make this world a world worth living in

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't have the power to face this life, but to give in to fear and to allow fear to direct me - not realising that I haven't given even myself a chance  to realise the power I have to change my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get everything done fast because i fear i wont have enough time to get it all done - and in that haste and fear to look at the big picture and get overwhelmed by it not realizing that i wont get it done fast and worrying about the future is utterly pointless

I forgive myself that I have mot accepted and allowed myself to breathe - to focus one point at a time and realize that through time and  accumulation one point becomes many points and in that ill get things done effectively instead of doing nothing by worrying 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that blaming myself has no point - self blame is knowing I am responsible but wallowing about it and not doing something about it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to to instead of blaming myself when things go wrong to take self responsibility - in that take action and do what needs to be done - instead of doing nothing

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have the power the face any point that comes up in my life and that each point is an opportunity for me to push though and become stronger and more effective

I commit myself to stop becoming overwhelmed when looking at the big picture but to take it day by, breathe by breath, point by point.

I commit myself to accept that this will take time - and that there is no quick fix

I commit myself to realize that hopelessness cannot exist if i breath and take it one step at a time and that i can only be overwhelmed if I  believe that i am not able to walk this process

I commit myself to give myself the chance to walk this process and to realize that i do in fact have the power to stand and face whatever points comes up.

I commit myself to realize that all fear is my doing and that it is not real

I commit myself to give myself worth and the power to face each point

Journey to life day 26 - Tomorrow everything will be OK.

Tomorrow everything will be OK.

Listen to this as you read:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SW3f0fkTPd8

There is a hope that just tomorrow everything will change and be ok.

I don’t have to do anything because something else will solve it for me.

There is a hope that I will wake up tomorrow and everything will be fine.

Common sense here dictates that if I don't change something today it won’t change tomorrow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that tomorrow all my problems will go away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that some higher power will make tomorrow ok and that if I hope hard enough everything will be ok

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want things to change but am unwilling to do what needs to be done to bring the change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that feelings and emotions will change the future and make my problems go away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that just tomorrow will be a better day where my problems will magically go away

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that my problems won’t go away by their own, but that I have to change and sort them out.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that no higher power will change me for me, but that I am responsible for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for myself to sort out my own issues

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my actions not only affects me but others as well and in that I am responsible for others as well.

I commit myself to stop the hope that some higher power will change me

I commit myself to stop the believe that something will magically make tomorrow a better day

I commit myself to stop hope, because hope is just that – a word, a belief that something or somebody else will do it for me

I commit myself to take responsibility for my self – because I am also responsible for others

I commit myself to realize that if I don’t make any changes today then obviously there will be no changes tomorrow

I commit myself to realize that if I am the same today then tomorrow will be today and I will be the same.  I have to make the changes to be the change that would change tomorrow

I commit myself to realize that feelings and emotions won’t change a thing