Day 251: "I Wish I Could just get Away from it all"

I’m sure many are feeling this or have felt like this in some point in their lives. There comes moments where you look at your life or the world and inside yourself scream for somebody or something to get you out of here – to take you away from your current situation to somewhere better. Where you hope and wish you could spread wings and just fly away – far away to a place where the grass is greener.
Today I found myself wishing for this when I was going through the latest news – a moment where I had thought to myself how great it would be to be able to get away from it all, to some paradise planet where all these terrible things do not exist. And at the same time I kind of chuckled, because even if it was possible for me to “get away from it all”, the terrible things will still exist. So even if am “away” from it I does not mean the bad things stop. I think the saying goes: “Out of sight, Out of Mind”.
After that I laughed, because it occurred to me that this is actually what we all are doing currently in the world. We only focus on our own lives, our own families, our own immediate environment and only deal with things that affect us directly – that in itself is a form of escapism, because we distance ourselves from all the bad things in this world. We shove it as far away as possible from our minds so that we do not have to worry about it: Children captured and trained to be soldiers? At least that is not happening here…
  We all live in our own safety bubbles. Unfortunately not everybody has a bubble that is safe. I am now 27 years old and have not yet seen any improvement with the state of world, despite the fact that Christianity is the top religion in the world. And I'm tired of waiting for it. time to break free from that bubble. The main problem is the bubble – we will only act if it affects us directly. Once we all realize that the earth is actually one big bubble and we are all in it – then we will see great change. Let’s make sure that solution comes sooner rather than later.

Day 173 - When Happiness is Escaping Reality

 

This is a continuation and conclusion of the previous blog which you can easily access by clicking this link right here:  link

This is the self-forgiveness’s on the previous blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel good by looking at thing outside myself to make me feel good, because I feel down

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need something outside myself to get me out of feeling down

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to, when I feel down - investigate the reason  why I feel down

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am the one who created/accepted and allowed the feeling of being down within me and I am responsible and thus that I am the only one who is able to clear myself from it / release it from within and as me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the need to feel good is to suppress the fact that I do not feel good.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I do go from a negative - feeling down/bad - to a positive - feeling good/happy - from a point of desiring to feel good: then I did not in fact deal with the feeling of being down. I did not in fact direct it and thus it is still existent within me and is the reason why the feeling of being down will always return.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the desire to feel good and to do so by finding things outside myself is me running away from my problems and not wanting to face myself and walk through the feeling of being down.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only method that is effective with dealing with a feeling of being down is to actually  find the reason - within myself - why I created this feeling and how I did so.

I commit myself to stop wanting to "uplift" myself from a feeling of being down by finding things outside myself. Instead I realize that to deal with problems within me I need to investigate the reasons why and how I created the feeling of being down in the first place and then stop it

I commit myself to take self-responsibility for what is happening inside myself and not find things outside myself to run away from that responsibility

I commit myself to stop suppressing what I feel - instead I face the points within me

I commit myself to stop the belief and idea that I am able to get myself out from feeling down by doing something fun - instead I realize that If I did not in fact direct the point the all I and doing is avoiding and suppressing the point of feeling down 

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that – I cannot ‘run away’ from myself by suppressing the bad and running to the good, because I am ALWAYS HERE WITH ME! And so therefore, I commit myself to assist and support myself to no more run and hide in the good, but face the bad/negative within me – so that I can be stable, standing, here with me and learn to LIVE me, because how can I truly live as long as I always attempt/try to ‘run’?

Day 61 - how to work through missing someone (pt2)

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience sadness when someone leaves that has been around for a while

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a empty feeling w ithin myself as if something went missing when somebody left me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I miss how that person made me feel

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the person makes me feel the way I do and that because they left they took something with them and now i feel something is missing

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the word missing indicates that i am missing something within myself that the other person creates when they are here and when they go it goes with them

I forgive myself that I not have accepted and allowed myself to realize that i am responsible for how i experience myself and that i created what i feel around somebody and that it is not them who creates it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if i am the one who creates my experiences then i create the empty feeling in myself - It os not the other person that i miss - it is the experience i created when they were here that i miss and it goes away because i believe it is the other person who made me feel this when it is only me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i miss someone because I have not allowed or accepted myself to give myself that which the other person showed me through their expression

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when i miss someone i miss myself - they stand as a mirror reflecting me - and that to instead then investigate what that other person seemingly fulfills in my life and then to give it to myself

I commit myself to stop the emptiness when someone leaves

I commit myself to stop being directed by the sadness when someone leaves

I commit myself to stop the belief that its the other person who makes me feel the way I do

I commit myself to realize that i am the one who creates what i feel and experience within myself

I commit myself to realize that missing someone is me missing what that person showed me through their expression and that it is me who believes it goes with them when they leave

I commit myself to no longer deny myself what the other person is showing me and to accepted it make it my own

I commit myself to realize that others are a mirror and are a reflection of myself

I commit myself to stop the missing/emptiness/unfulfillment and to gift myself in this process of making myself whole/complete/equal and one.

Journey to life day 26 - Tomorrow everything will be OK.

Tomorrow everything will be OK.

Listen to this as you read:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SW3f0fkTPd8

There is a hope that just tomorrow everything will change and be ok.

I don’t have to do anything because something else will solve it for me.

There is a hope that I will wake up tomorrow and everything will be fine.

Common sense here dictates that if I don't change something today it won’t change tomorrow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that tomorrow all my problems will go away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that some higher power will make tomorrow ok and that if I hope hard enough everything will be ok

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want things to change but am unwilling to do what needs to be done to bring the change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that feelings and emotions will change the future and make my problems go away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that just tomorrow will be a better day where my problems will magically go away

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that my problems won’t go away by their own, but that I have to change and sort them out.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that no higher power will change me for me, but that I am responsible for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for myself to sort out my own issues

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my actions not only affects me but others as well and in that I am responsible for others as well.

I commit myself to stop the hope that some higher power will change me

I commit myself to stop the believe that something will magically make tomorrow a better day

I commit myself to stop hope, because hope is just that – a word, a belief that something or somebody else will do it for me

I commit myself to take responsibility for my self – because I am also responsible for others

I commit myself to realize that if I don’t make any changes today then obviously there will be no changes tomorrow

I commit myself to realize that if I am the same today then tomorrow will be today and I will be the same.  I have to make the changes to be the change that would change tomorrow

I commit myself to realize that feelings and emotions won’t change a thing