Day 105 - Breathe

 

A new Development.

I got myself a hemorrhoid. Its an extremely painful bump that occurs on your asshole and related to constipation. So here follows some points in regards to it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I got this hemorrhoid to become angry at myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become irritated, because I believe i cant get anything right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated at this new development, because what is happening to me just becomes worse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up, because i believe that i am doing my best and that this new development means that my best is not good enough.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to force myself to get better without considering my body and consequences

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to breathe so that I can be fully here all of me in order to fully assist myself as my body so that there is a consistent flow in all that i do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let feelings and emotions direct me in making me feel that there is no end to this - that there will always be something wrong with me and that I have no choice within this.

I commit myself to stop the anger when a new problem presents itself, instead I find the source of it and deal with it.

I commit myself to stop being irritated, instead I realize there no point to being irritated

I commit myself to stop the frustration and realize that its backchat - instead I stop the backchat

I commit myself to stop the belief that if new problems arise then I am not good enough

I commit myself to consider myself and my body by breathing so that I can be fully here all of me in order to fully assist myself as my body so that there is a consistent flow in all that I do

I commit myself to realize that this is a process and there will be new points and problems that will creep up so i commit myself to deal with it as I have done with other problems and realize that i do have the power and overcome them as have chose to do it.

Day 3 - The best way to be fully awake in the mornings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be tired and groggy when I wake up the mornings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the grogginess and tiredness is real and have power over me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give in to the tiredness and go back to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thoughts about the day ahead of me influence me and make me tired – not realizing that the tiredness is me not wanting to face the day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my not wanting to face the day make me want to ‘’get away from it all’’ by not wanting to get out of bed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into resistance to get out of bed in the morning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the resistance is real and have power over me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to subconsciously block out the sound of my alarm, because I don’t want to get up and face the day.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I alone am responsible for me and how I feel and experience myself.

I commit myself to every morning wake up and take a breath – and within this breath I breathe life clearing myself from all thoughts feeling and emotions by stating “I am awake”. 

I commit myself to wake up with a breath so that with a single breath I am fully awake.

How Silence Brings Life

Self silence is when nothing moves in you – you are here. No thing that is not self directed moves within you.

Obviously this is a process so what we do is use Breath to be able to see the thoughts feelings and emotions as they come up.

We Humans are not breathing – we are not aware of our breath which is shocking because breathing is that which gives us life.

If you look at dolphins – their breathing is not automatic – they have to physically with awareness take a breath and can choose not to take the next breath and die.

So when you are aware of your breath you are here – when you not aware of your breath your in your head in another world. So when you notice you are not in fact breathing here you know your not here. Then you look at what thoughts came up in that moment that kept you from being here and do forgiveness on it with effective self corrective statements that you can live by.

Same with emotions and feelings – as they come up you deal with it. Anything that moves in you that you didn't direct you must investigate what it is and deal with it immediately.  You want to eventually have nothing move in you – silence Here. This is a process of becoming self directed where nothing can move you.

If you are asking what is self forgiveness go here – www.desteni.org

I learned to Breath

 

We live in a world were waiting 20 minutes in a line or getting stuck in traffic for an hour seems to be a long time. We are used to getting results fast and when we don't we get impatient.

This creates the idea that when something takes long and results are not seen soon then something is wrong or not working. This applies to change.

In this process of changing myself I realized that it takes time. And you don't see results fast. We tend to want to give up if something takes longer than a week a month – not realizing what is involved with change. For me to change the personality called Fidelis when first started Desteni must cease to exist. That is the point of reprogramming yourself and writing self to freedom. A personality develops in the first 7 years of life – how long will it take to change that? That depends on me.

The point here is that it will take as long as it takes – Patience is really a virtue. Part of being a Destonian is that we are breathers – in the end that is all we have – Breath and dedication. Being patient depends on how well you breathe.

So I take this one breathe at a time until it is done. Join us at the Desteni I process to learn how to breathe while making serious money.

I Breathe Life

When I first came to Desteni I was a zombie. The silent type, introvert and had no clear plans for the future. If I had to explain my experience of myself back then it was as if I was standing back inside myself – almost like sitting back and watching a movie. I did not participate really and avoided conversations with people. All this was the aftermath of not wanting to feel again when my mother died.

So since participating with Desteni I have had and have a lot of support that assisted me with these points. I was able to realize that the reason for my zombie state depression was because of my mother and was able to move past that. I would never have made that connection on a conscious level and probably would have ended up drifting through life as a lifeless body – or killed myself.

I was able to breathe life into me again and I could see my eyes become alive as I experienced myself for the first time in many years. I could feel myself as I moved through my body and was amazed at the simplicity of the words I spoke and understand – I am Here.

With the tools of the Desteni I Process I gave myself Life, I moved on. I realized points within myself that I never would have considered possible. I am the creator of myself and all my experiences and have been redesigning myself so that I can be effective in everything I do.

I Found myself - Desteni I Process