Day 115 - Human Defense Mechanism

 

Animals and insects have defensive mechanisms:

Chameleons change color, spiders bite, scorpions stings, ducks claw, cats scratch, dogs bite and stick insects....look like sticks. All for survival. Now today we are looking at what happens when humans are attacked -  not physically, but verbally. If someone talks shit about you you go into a reaction and often feel the need to defend yourself. When you take something personally you react and go into defensive mode where you will become angry and act out the anger either physically or verbally.

Why The need to defend oneself when somebody says something about you? Why do i allow the other person to influence me? It should’ not matter what another says about mw, because i know who I am and who im not. There should be no need to defend myself - otherwise I give power to the person over me.

Here follows the steps to clear myself from this point:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into defensive mode when someone is saying something about me that i take personally

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to within this defensive mode to attack the person verbally

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away by allowing the other person to influence my behavior by reacting to what they say

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to care what people think of me and in this feel the need to defend myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others judging me and this i feel the need to defend myself so that others don't believe what the other person is saying about me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to after the event further defend myself with backchat of thoughts in my head where I will see myself as the better person and the other person as very inferior to me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to act on the anger and be directed by this anger by going into defense mode

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to simply not take things personally

I commit myself to not go into defensive mode

I commit myself to stop taking things personally

I commit myself to stop attacking people verbally by stopping the anger and not be directed by it.

I commit myself to be self directed and not allow other to influence who i am

I commit myself to stop the fear of judgement from others

I commit myself to stop the belief that i need to defend myself - instead i realize that it doesn’it matter what other say.

I commit myself to stop the backchat of me seeing myself as superior and better than others

When i face  point where someone is talking shit about me, or says and do something that i will take personally - to stop and breath. I realize that it doesnt matter what others say about me. I direct the point by either walking away or find the reason why the person said what they said WITHOUT reacting in anger.

Day 74 - Why should I When nobody else will!

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the character '' why should I when nobody else will''

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to call upon this character when i am faced with a point that I do not want to do

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to rea lize that i use this character as an excuse not do something I do not want to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to call upon this character when I look at the state the world is in to use it as an excuse not to do anything about this world, because nobody else will then why should i

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this character when presented with a solution for most of the problems on earth to not support it because I believe that nobody else will so why should I - not realizing that I am using it as an excuse not to do anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this character when i see there is a rock in the path where many people will walk - And not move it out of the way so that nobody can get hurt but to leave the rock there, because I believe that nobody else will do it so why should I

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I keep on using the excuse that ''other people wont do anything about this world the why should I'' - Then nothing will change and everything will stay the same

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that If I wait for others to change first before i do then the world will continue the why it is

forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i created this character out if fear - the fear of change and losing that which I have become and the uncertainty that comes with change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if i do not change and make the effort to do what needs to be done to change this world then nothing will happen - I am the key and standing as an example i can show others that it is possible to change

I commit myself to stop the ''Why should i when nobody else will'' character

I commit myself to stop using this character as an excuse to not do what needs to be done

I commit myself to stop waiting for other people to change before I do

I commit myself to stop using this character as an excuse and a valid reason not to find solutions to this world

I commit myself to realize that if i keep on using this character then no change will come and everything will stay the same

I commit myself to take self responsibility and not blame others for not changing - but to change myself regardless so that i can become an example of what is possible and then become effective in showing others what i have realized

I commit myself to stop the fear of change - to instead embrace the change - because we need change in this world as there is too much suffering and abuse - we need a new world

Journey to life day 33 - Why should I do it?!

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat in relation to fairness and my believe of what is fair when I have to do something that somebody else could have done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when asked to do something become irritated and and angry  because I have to do it and want somebody else to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to become angry at the person who asked me to do it and then have thoughts about shouting at them why should I do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not fair that I have to do it - but that somebody else must do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the anger and irritability I experience is because I so not want to do it - and out of that use backchat because I want someone else to do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that fairness doesn't exist - and that i have a created a perception of what is fair and not fair and. And if fairness really existed this world would not be what it is today

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that wanting somebody else to do it is ego - its me seeing myself as better than others and trying to assert authority just because i don’t want to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful  in wanting somebody else to do it, because i want them go through the discomfort I went through

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the answer for the question ''why should i do it'' is ''because im able to''. And that anything else is me wanting to abdicate responsibility and laziness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to take responsibility but rather let somebody else take responsibility - not realizing that  in this i am without self direction and will in no way be able to sort out this world to make it a better place to live in but that i will always want somebody else to do it. And then when everybody wants somebody else to do it we end up with a world we see today...

I commit myself to when ask to do something stop the backchat and the anger and the irritability and the urge to say WHY ME

I commit myself to do something simply because I'm able to

I commit myself to do more than what is expected of me when i am able to

I commit myself to not use the excuse i have done it many times before its time you do it when i don't feel like doing something

I commit myself to see that the world is not fair and in that fairness doesn't exist  and so not use the excuse of 'its not fair'

I commit myself to let go the delusion that is my ego - to realize that as long as i have an ego i can never make a difference in this world but will always contribute to its abusiveness

I commit myself to stop the spitefulness that comes with wanting somebody else to do it - to want them to go though the discomfort I have - but to instead live my life so that no being will have to go through unnecessary discomfort