Day 170 - Finding things to make you Happy

 

Life is full of ups and downs. You must look hard and find the things in life that makes you feel good. Do all you can to feel good -but what does this really imply?

If you want to feel good then it means you feel bad/down. Then what we do is look for things to make us happy and then we are happy for a little while then we feel down again. This roller-coaster ride is not the way to go through life and very impractical.

What I have found a while ago was that I was looking for things to do - specifically something I like and enjoy. I would either watch a cool series or movie or play a game or find something outside to do. When I was done with a movie or a series I noticed that I was feeling down - at the time I did not realize this - especially when there is nothing to watch or do that I like. Basically what was happening was that I experienced myself as being down and instead of investigating the reason WHY I was feeling down what I did was look for something OUTSIDE myself to get me out of that feeling - from a negative to a positive.

What this showed me is that I was suppressing what I felt and hiding it with doing things that I like. Now I am not saying it is "wrong" or that you should not do things that you like - its cool to do so - but it is all about the starting point/reason behind what I am doing.

I am the one who created that feeling of "being down", I created that experience within myself. Within this I am the one responsible for it and thus cannot blame anything outside myself for its existence within me. The same goes for finding things OUTSIDE myself to get me out of that down feeling - this will never work. It works for a little while, but not really because what is happening is that the feeling is simply suppressed - that is why it will keep on coming back and you will keep on feeling the need to make yourself happy.

I created it - I am responsible. The only way to get yourself out of that feeling of being down is to investigate how you created it in the first place. Then forgive yourself for creating it and walk a commitment to stop creating it. That is what the Desteni process is - it is about you taking responsibility for yourself. Giving yourself the power of creation where instead of creating these feelings that bring you down and limit you you have the opportunity to make and shape yourself into a effective living human beings where you are the directive principle in your life. Join us. www.desteni.org

Day 54 - Pointing fingers when I am to blame*

 

(*title lyrics from a new EPIC song with Robot Virgins: Cerise, Fidelis and Earthonites: Matti,Kelly. Coming soon..........)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the blaming character so that I can abdicate responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for making me angry not realizing that it is me who created the thoughts and the emotion inside me and that it is me who is allowing it

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for hurting me by calling me names and is mean to me - not realizing that it is me who allowed myself to take it personally and i created the feeling

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world for me being depressed and to see myself at the victim who has no choice and that i am doomed to be depressed forever - not realizing that I created the depression and allowed it and thus i have the power to undo it

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i am responsible for myself and everything inside of me what i feel and that nobody can do anything to me unless i allow it

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame corporations for stripping the earth from resources like forests and water - not realizing that by spending money i allow capitalism to continue and also by doing nothing to change it

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the government for the state the country is in - not realizing that its the whole world system that doesn't provide for everyone and that WE created this world system the way it is and thus i am responsible

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame world and everybody else for making this life so horrible and that i have nothing to do with it - not realizing that the world is a reflection of myself and that my actions and decisions helps shape this world

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that where there is blame the is abdication of responsibility so when i am blaming someone it is really me not wanting to face the truth that i am blaming myself

I commit myself to delete the blaming character

I commit myself to realize that i created the anger i feel and that with the same power i used to create it i can stop it

I commit myself to realize that i created the depression i feel and that with the same power i used to create it i can stop it

I commit myself to stop blaming others for making this world full of suffering and abuse and to realize that by doing nothing to stop it I allow it to continue

I commit myself to realize that i create all the feelings and emotions and thoughts inside me and that nobody can make me feel anything unless i allow it and that i am responsible for myself

I commit myself to stop blaming the government for the state of the country and to start take self responsibility to investigate solutions to end problems permanently like the Equal Money System 

I commit myself to stop blaming corporations for raping the earth and to see that it is the world system that we created that caused the problem and that i am also responsible

I commit myself to stop abdicating responsibility by blaming others and to realize that if i blame someone I am only blaming myself

Journey to life day 18 - Do I Really love you?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that  love is a feeling

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that What i feel is love for someone

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold on that feeling because it make ME feel good

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be willing to do everything and anything to protect this feeling of love - even compromise and sacrifice to keep this love

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself not to see that I alone feel this love

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not to see that this love i feel has nothing to do with the other person

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself not to see that i created this feeling based on what i believe the other person does and gives me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the others person is responsible for my love

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i cannot give myself what another has shown me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to limit the definition of what love really is by a mundane thing such as feeling

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by this feeling

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be limited by love - and give into fear of losing this love - and in this be not effective in directing someone to not allow their bullshit in fear of they not liking me and leaving me

I commit myself to stop the delusion of love as a feeling that limits and abuses life

I commit myself to se that i am the one creating these feeling =s and that it has nothing to do with the other person

I commit myself to see that what i love in another is something i have denied myself and that i have the power to give that to myself

I commit myself to see that if i really loved someone - my actions will be to direct another being to stand as life no matter what - instead of fearing loosing them

I commit myself to stop compromising myself to keep the idea and delusion of love alive