Day 72 - ''I'll do anything to fit in'' Character Part 2

 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the ''ill do anything to fit in ''character and to believe that this character is real and part of who i am

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create this character and u  se it to change who i am so that i can fit in with my friends and be in a position where i belong.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use this character so that others can accept me - not realizing that me wanting others to accept me is me not accepting myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be a different person around my friends and family depending on the situation so that i can fit in with those people to avoid conflict and then not accepting me

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i am compromising myself just so that i can fit in

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as this character i am not real - it is a act. I am presenting myself as fake

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to ever saw and realize that who i am is fake - that it never occurred to me and that i saw what i was doing as normal and acceptable - not realizing that i was manipulating others to suit my needs

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that others also do the same - that those who i am friends with and like are characters and like me is not real and in this the friendship is not real. Its a bunch of characters liking other characters and that nobody is real

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself and who I am from others by creating this character out of fear not being accepted

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming real and dropping the act - because i fear others will not like me anymore nor will they accept me anymore

I commit myself to delete the ''I will do anything to fit in character

I commit myself to stop changing who i am in order to fit in and be accepted by others and thus compromising myself and to instead accept myself

I commit myself to stop being a different person around certain people and certain situations but to be consist in who i am and to keep deleting the characters until i become real

I commit myself to stop changing who i am so that others can like me and to avoid conflict  - realizing that it is fear and not real

I commit myself to realize that being a character i am fake and not real, and that others are also fake and not real - and to continue showing others this and to support myself and others in becoming real

I commit myself to stop hiding myself from others by creating characters but to instead realize that this is a fear of being judged and rejected - but it is actually me already judging myself and not accepting myself. If i accept myself then i would not need others to accept me so i drop this fear and commit myself in becoming real

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Day 71 - ''I'll do anything to fit in'' Character

 

This is related to when i was in school. Where i would change my behavior just so that i can fit in with other people so that they can accept me. So i would compromise myself and who i am so that i can keep my friends and then i change who i am and believe this character is real.

Peer pressure. You can look back in your life and realize that everybody does the same thing - they change themselves to fit in. I was a deferent person depending on who i am with. I would be the 'goody two shoes' character when im around my parents, teachers, friends parents and then a deferent person when im around my friends and then a deferent person when im arou nd a beautiful girl i like.

In this as i look back i ask myself who was I? Who was the real me? When i look at how i was when i was alone with myself i was again another person/character. When i was alone with myself there was no need to change. That was the person who i really was. But i alone knew that and how i presented myself to others was fake and not real. Simply characters so suit my life and the particular situation I was in.

Now i have to ask myself who was I friends with? The person i was friends with was also another character and not a real person. It was somebody like me who chose to be a particular character depending on who they were with. And everybody is like that, a bunch on characters.

Nobody was real - nobody revealed who the really are just like I hid myself from others. And i did this out of fear. We do this out of fear. The fear of not being accepted by others - the fear others not liking who you really are, The fear of others judging who you are.

I find it interesting that I never saw myself as being fake/nor real. I thought i was real. Everybody think they are real. We all believe that this person and character is who we are. But if i was real then who i was would never change. I would not create different characters around different situations, I would be consistent in who I am and what I do no matter the situation or who i am with.

And so I chose and created my characters and became friends with characters that i liked, in this lived a lie - it wasn't real. Who is the real me. Who are you?

This is why I am busy with getting rid of all the characters i have created, because i realize now that it was all a act. I need to become real - find the real person. We all need to become real. To Keep it real 

 

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Fake greeting Fake

Where is the real people? We have become secluded and we hide from each other in fear of each other. Money has made us see how far we will go to get what we want.

At the shops till counter there is a sticker on the till workers desk that reminds them how to engage a customer.

It has steps that says to greet the customer with a smile and ask how are you? Shit like that.

Its apparently good manners, but what it really is is fake, deceitful. Two fakes not expressing their natural self expression.
We all hide from each other. And put up faces to fit in or to survive.

We live in a Dog Eat Dog world because of money.
If we no longer need money to survive then we can focus on our Lifes.

What would our natural self expression be - with an equal money system we can find out.