Day 87 - Change with assistance from Desteni: Self Trust 3

 

This is a continuation of how I learnt to trust myself with help from Desteni. Part 2 is here.

 

With hands on earth work I learnt self trust and how to become confident within what I do. Today i will write about the inside process of change - for example working through emotions and feelings like depression, anxiety, fear etc.

Just like the physical work and a new project that i am doing - working through new points and changing myself i am faced with lots of fear and self doubt. Its a whole new point and i have no idea how to get past it. I do not know if i will be able to do it. I have no self trust within myself when facing this new project - these are the usual thoughts that come up when facing a new point.

As I mentioned in my previous post i am a 'go with the flow'' guy. I never questioned my feelings and emotions and why i like certain things or why i do certain things. For example i was depressed in school - and through all the pain and anger I never even considered that i created the depression and that i have the power to end it. Everything always happened to ME - where it should have been I always have choice within it - I create what happens inside of me.

So when it came to actually changing myself so that i can stop being angry at the world and blaming others - I had zero trust within myself. How could i have when i never proved to myself that I am able to let go and change? But that should not be a reason to not do it. Self trust must be built and be consistent and proven over and over.

This is taken from my previous blog:

'''And after many projects there is a patter forming - that no matter the project I was able to do it''

The same happens to working through anger, depression, jealousy, self judgement etc. After a while a pattern starts forming and i have realized a point of stability within myself. That all the points i have faced i was able to move past it. I realized that no matter what point i am faced with or going to face - i have the power to move past it. Self trust and confidence. There are still some points where i go ''O shit! what do i do''. And when something seems too big or i doubt myself I go to the point of stability - that i have the power, thanks to Desteni.

With self forgiveness, self honesty and self corrective application you are able to change any point within yourself ***.

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Journey to Life Day 43 - ''Fear of Failure'' Character

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the fear of failure character and to believe that it is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear when faced with something new that i have no idea how to handle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by this fear of failure that i become ineffective within what i do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become uncertain with this this fear and believe that i cannot do anything

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that fear in not real

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that fear is something that i created - because i am the creator - and within this i can stop the fear

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is no way that i know if i will fail with something unless i have given it my all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that if i fear failure then that is what needs to happen so that i can face it and move past it - instead i clear myself from it now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if i don't walk the moment with confidence and self trust but instead move as fear and self doubt i will indeed not be effective and fail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold to this character throughout my life and never realized my power of creation and do something about this fear by choosing not to accept and allow it as who i am

I commit myself to stop the character of fear of failure

I commit myself to stop my self doubt and fear when facing points and situations

I commit myself to be confident and have self trust in every breath

I commit myself to realize that this fear of failure is not real but something that i have created and in that i delete this character

I commit myself to face every moment without fear but with gratefulness for this opportunity to become more effective in who i am

I commit myself to stop being paralyzed by fear in becoming overwhelmed with uncertainty 

I commit myself to  face every moment self directed and not to be directed by my thoughts feelings and emotions

I commit myself to realize that i decide who i am in every moment and that i determine who i am

I commit myself to clear myself from this character and to show others the same and to assist them with it