Journey to life day 17: Discipline

Discipline – to do what needs to be done

Having discipline is important. To push through points and resistances require discipline because you go against your programming and that can be very difficult. The best way to deal with this  and what I have learned is to keep to your word meaning if you say you are going to do something you do it.

What happens mostly is you come up with excuses not to keep your word. For example let’s say I say I am going to work on an assignment today.  But instead of doing it I would find excuses not to do it like: ‘I will do it tomorrow’,  ‘ I don’t feel like it now’ ,’I’m to tired’. these thoughts are part of the resistance keeping myself from staying true to my word. 

Same with facing addictions and stopping addictions – there is always some excuse you’ll find to not give up the addiction. No self-direction. No power. 

To allow feelings and thoughts to direct me in not doing 

what I said ill do is me giving my power away – in this invalidating myself and my word making it basically worthless. Then I cannot trust myself.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts and feelings and emotions that keep me from doing what I said I will do

I commit myself to stop making excuses and give into the resistance that comes when working on points I don’t want to

I commit myself to be self-disciplined and keeping my word so that I can trust myself and my word.

I commit myself to push myself and breathe when it becomes difficult to stop .

I commit myself to stop the belief that I am too weak to face my addictions to stop them

With breath I can stop and be here.

I am Discipline

Journey to life day 15 – Anger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are responsible for making me angry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to see that I am responsible for my anger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to stop the thoughts that lead me to the anger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the thoughts and emotions and act out on it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to anger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the anger is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot control my anger

I commit myself be the directive principle 

I commit myself to stop blaming my environment and others for my anger

I commit myself to stop my anger and in that take back my power in being the directive principle

I commit myself to stop the thoughts that eventually lead the anger

Journey to life day 16 - Fearing conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to out of fear to avoid conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make sure that my actions never cause conflict with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to compromise myself by not speaking up when I see I need to because it would cause conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow fear of conflict to direct me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  fear conflict situations because I fear I won’t be able to direct myself or the situation effectively 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot handle conflict situations based on past experiences – not realizing that I have never actually directed myself to become effective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a peaceful person that does not get angry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself because I fear conflict

I commit myself not to hide or run away from conflict

I commit myself to embrace conflict – because through conflict you create friction  and its through friction where points get moving

I commit myself to push myself through the fear and resistances to say what needs to be said and not to worry about if I will be effective or not. 

I commit myself to stop comprising myself by avoiding directing myself and others

I commit myself to stand strong when a point needs to be said and to follow through

Journey to life day 14 – I don’t feel like it!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by feelings and emotions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let feelings and emotions decide what I do and don’t do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my feelings and emotions are more than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only do what I like doing based on how I feel about it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to override common sense when it comes to feelings and emotions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to be the directive principle by allowing emotions and feelings to direct me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my feelings and emotions are real

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my feelings and emotions are not me

I commit myself to be the directive principle in my life

I commit myself to keep to my word

I commit myself to not allow myself to be directed by emotions and feelings

I commit myself to not get side tracked by feelings and emotions

I commit myself to breathe thought any resistances I encounter regarding points that  don’t feel like doing

I realize that not feeling like it is resistance

Journey to life day 13 – Rushing is pointless

Journey to life day 13 – Rushing is pointless

 

When walking from point A to point B I walk fast paced and in my head I have the destination in place.

Within doing this I’m rushing to get to the destination fast. And doing this you are not here in the moment but in your head and thus you miss out on the world around you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get to my destination fast.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush myself when walking, in doing so not seeing the world around me and unaware of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get to believe that I have no time and thus must compromise myself by not being here in breath  by rushing.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to breathe and be here self-aware

I commit myself to when walking to walk slower and be aware of the world around me

I commit myself to stop rushing to get to a point faster

I commit myself to be HERE

Journey to life day 12 – Judging people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others and to see myself as better than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I were other peoples position I would do better or would have done things differently 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others so that I feel better about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel better at others expense – not realising that in the need to feel better means that there is an underlining problem that requires direction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to first find fault in others before I look inward at the real issue

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to look inward at the real issue – but first want to judge others 

I commit myself to stop judging people

I commit myself to look at myself first and see why I want to judge someone

I commit myself to stop seeing myself as superior to others

Journey to life day 11 - Frustration

Today we finished ANOTHER song – yeaaay. We has some difficulties with sorting out the production of it. We have to export the song and listen to it on various sound systems to hear what it sounds like and if there is something that needs to be changed I have to go back to the original mix and fix it. So today was all about listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back. In this I really got frustrated and a bit moody as a result.

In the End it was worth it – we got it to sound GREAT. Will be available shortly. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by frustration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate the backchat that resulted in the frustration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breath to stop the thoughts that led to the frustration 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the frustration to change me in my consistency and become edgy and snappy

I commit myself to stop the thoughts before they accumulate frustration 

I commit myself to breath to assist myself in stopping the thoughts

I commit myself to not allow the backchat as feelings and emotions that lead to the frustration

Journey to life day 10 – Beautifully blinded

Only looking at the beautiful and blinded by it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see this world as a beautiful place

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only look at the good and the beautiful 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to look at the reality of the situation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to look at that which makes me feel good – and to then discard that which doesn’t make me feel good

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let a feeling decide what I should look at and not look at

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by the beauty I see

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded by the beauty – not seeing the suffering 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately only look at the beauty so that I can claim ignorance to the suffering 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to block out all the suffering so that I can keep on feeling good

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to want to confirm the suffering – because I don’t want to change myself to put an end to it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I only look at good and beauty then the bad doesn’t exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I ignore the suffering it will go away

I commit myself to not look away from the suffering – but to change myself so that I can be in a position where my actions and words will put an end to it

I commit myself to stop the believe that the world is a beautiful place and to see it for what it is – a shot hole

I commit myself to stop allowing a feeling to direct me to only want to look at the good and beautiful.

I commit myself to stop denying that the world is ok – but to see  the reality that it is in dire straits

I commit myself to see that I can make a difference. 

Journey to Life Day 9 – Being Impatient

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be impatient

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want everything to move faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in moving too slow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ill get everything right first time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I’m doing something wrong because things are moving slow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea that this process should be faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get used to today’s industrial system where everything moves fast

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself because it seems that what I do has no effect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel it’s pointless to spend time in making music, because the videos move slowly

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it takes time to accumulate points

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the accumulated effect this process already has and that in reality it is actually moving forward

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I play a big role in keeping the ball rolling – that I and another I plus another I plus another I we then have many I’s that work towards the accumulated effect and through this we grow faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself and my actions and words as insignificant, not realizing that it takes not just me but all to make a difference and that I am part of that all and that it is important to keep on doing what I do

I commit myself to see that I am insignificant alone – but as part of a group of I’s we have an effect

I commit myself to keep to my commitments

I commit myself to patient

I commit myself to see that what I do is important

I commit myself to stop seeing my actions and deeds as not important.

i commit myself to see that as part of a group my actions and deeds effects the effectiveness of the group

I commit myself to see that it takes time to grow.

Journey to Life Day 8 – Not writing everyday

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by not writing 

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by not supporting myself through writing everyday – knowing that writing will assist me in being effective

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into excuses to not write daily

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push through the resistance of writing everyday

I forgive Myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself that opportunity to expand myself effectively and know myself by writing daily

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow backchat to exist and to believe that writing daily won’t really help me

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do this because others are doings this, instead of writing every day for myself to benefit myself.

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don’t have the time to write every day, not realizing that this is simply an excuse

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see writing everyday as ‘work’, not realizing that seeing it as work is me not doing for me but as an obligation. I do this for me

I commit myself to write everyday