Day 219: If I change myself – Will the world change?

 

"'You cant change this world".

This is something that comes up with people when they see others dedicating their lives to world change. It is said that the world is just the way it is and nothing can be done make it difference. It has been blamed on many things like human nature – saying that it is in our nature to be greedy and uncaring. That the world is the way it is, because it’s our nature and that will never change. No one person can change this world. It is very easy to give up even before you started. It is very easy to simply say “ it is impossible “ just so that you do not actually have to do anything.

It is at least partially right – human nature is the problem. It is not our nature that is the problem, but it is what we have all accepted and allowed our nature to be. The question is then if you can change the nature of the human, which the nature of yourself, will the world change?

To find the answer first look at world as a whole – we have the usual things that are always there like war, famine, hunger, poverty. Now, the world is really a reflection of ourselves – let’s take war for example: War stems from things like anger, mistrust, bullying, ego and a lust for power. If we look within ourselves we will find all those things exist within us. All these terrible things that exist in this world had to come from somewhere – ourselves. It is human behavior on a larger scale.

Common sense here would dictate that if human nature/behavior was different then the world would be different as well. So yes – you change human nature you change the world. But can human nature/behavior be changed? Many believe it is impossible, but it’s not.

This is how you change the world – change yourself and live as an example and assist others to do the same. It is not an easy thing to walk and many give up or fade away. You can change who you are, because I have changed who I am. Since walking this journey I have changed allot of points within myself for the better. If I can do this so can you.

Day 66 - Being a good Person is actually being Selfish

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the '' I am a Good person character to help me deal with situations in life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this character is real
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as a good character by changing my voice to a higher pitch when speaking to others so that they can see i am a good person and then be more likely to accept me and agree with me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate others by setting myself up as being a good person to avoid conflict - not realizing that i created this character out of fear of conflict
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to fear conflict so much that I would create the I am a good person character as a defensive mechanism just to avoid it
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into this character with others as an attempt to not be judged by others = not realizing that i don't fear their judgement but that i have the judgement within myself already so it is me I who is judging myself
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when as a child to when i saw somebody got yelled at for not being good - to make the conclusion that i should then present myself as being good so that i do not get yelled at - because i fear being yelled at
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being a good person is for the benefit of others and that i am doing others a service by being good with them - not realized that i am being selfish because i am only being good to benefit myself and my life and if i has nothing to gain from being good i will not be a good person
I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that being good is not about a feeling or to feel good about being good - but to do something because it is what i would have liked for myself - to do something through understanding the need for it  and that it needs to be done regardless of how i feel about it, because then i am self directed and not depending and limited by a feeling
I commit myself to delete the 'i am a good person character
I commit myself to stop manipulating others by changing my voice a little higher to make them like me
I commit myself to stop wanting to get something from others by being the good person
I commit myself to to stop going into this character to get others to like and accept me and to stop seeking acceptance from others but to instead accept myself
I commit myself to stop going into this character to avoid conflict but to instead if hiding away from conflict to face it
I commit myself to stop going into this character to avoid being judged by others - not realizing that i am the one who who is judging myself and so to stop judging myself
I commit myself to stop the believe that i need this character to be able to avoid being yelled at
I commit myself to see that being a good person is being selfish and based in self interest - because I depend on a feeling before I do something - So i then instead to do something through understanding the need for it  and that it needs to be done regardless of how i feel about it, because then i am self directed and not depending and limited by a feeling so
I commit myself to stop wanting to get something from others by being the good person

Journey to life day 23 - Being unaware

This happens quite often - do you find yourself walking to a room, get there and then not remembering why? Do you look at your watch for the time and then after you looked someone ask you what the time is and then you don't know?

Today I went to make myself some tea - but I made coffee instead. In these situations you"ll find that the reason this happens is because your not here in the moment but n your head thinking, being unaware of the world around you.
 Your body is still here so it goes into auto-mode while you are in your head - and the silly things happen

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unaware of my environment by going to a place in my head.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to to see that the place in my head is not real

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up my self distinctiveness by allowing myself to not be here and allowing thoughts to direct me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to allow thoughts to direct me in not being here

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not stop the thoughts so that i can be here and be aware of myself  and not miss take the world around me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into behavior patterns in allowing myself to go into auto-mode where i have no self direction and being directed

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to walk into a room and have no idea why i wanted to go there in the first place - in this allowing myself to go into my head as i walk and not being here and thus unaware with no self directive power.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my thoughts power over me by allowing my thoughts to direct me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the thoughts are real and have power over me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to leave this moment HERE to project myself into the future and in that not being here in the moment

I commit myself to stop believing that thoughts have power over me

I commit myself to stop allowing thoughts to direct me in not being here

I commit myself to stop the thoughts so that i can remain here

I commit myself to be here

I commit myself to breath to assist me in being here

I commit myself to be self directive

I commit myself to not give my power away to thoughts, feelings and emotions

I commit myself to not be aware of myself so that when i see myself going into my head to stop it immediately to bring myself back here

I commit myself to stop projecting myself into the future, but to remain in the moment

Journey to life day 22 + 24 - Being Mooooooooody (updated)

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become moody

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to in my moodiness become irritated and snap at people

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world around me for what is happening to me

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see that i created the moodiness through accumulated  backchat of thoughts that i have not stopped

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to stop the backchat

I commit myself to stop the backchat of thoughts, feelings and emotions that lead to me being moody and getting irritated and snapping at people

I commit myself to stop blaming the world for what i am responsible for


So the above i wrote on my day 22, but as you can see it is very short and unspecific which in not acceptable. What happened is that i wrote a blog but the connection dropped when i pressed post and i didn't  save the blog so I lost all my writing. I didn't want to redo all my writing so i wrote the above - which was not acceptable so here we go:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my blog got deleted as an excuse not to be consistent

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not want to redo a blog and use the excuse i already did it and don't need to do it again

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become angry at the computer for losing my blog

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself not become angry at myself for not saving my blog

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to to give into resistances and not do what i know i should  have done

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to then try and get away with the bare minimum just because i don't want to redo a post

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if  i am unwilling to redo what i do then what i do is not real and has no meaning or value and thus i have to prove to myself consistency by being willing to redo everything i did.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to to be consistent no matter what the circumstance


I commit myself to not use excuses when i don't feel like doing something
I commit myself to stop being lazy

I commit myself to be consistent no matter what

I commit myself to if i have to redo what i did to prove to myself that i am indeed able to

I commit myself to not be inconsistent when i experience resistances

I commit myself to push through these resistances so that i can do what i said i would

I commit myself to not again post half done crap but to put out to the best of my ability

I Commit myself to see that my action doesn't just effect me, but effects others and that has consequences on a whole lot more than just my world. So commit myself to consider the consequences and outflows of my actions.

Journey to Life Day 8 – Not writing everyday

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by not writing 

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by not supporting myself through writing everyday – knowing that writing will assist me in being effective

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into excuses to not write daily

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push through the resistance of writing everyday

I forgive Myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself that opportunity to expand myself effectively and know myself by writing daily

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow backchat to exist and to believe that writing daily won’t really help me

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do this because others are doings this, instead of writing every day for myself to benefit myself.

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don’t have the time to write every day, not realizing that this is simply an excuse

I forgive Myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see writing everyday as ‘work’, not realizing that seeing it as work is me not doing for me but as an obligation. I do this for me

I commit myself to write everyday