No time to RELAX!
Today I was walking around a bit inspecting the fruit trees and looking if there is any new growth. Our peach and nectarine trees have started flowing a bit early this year since we are in the middle of winter and they usually start at the end of winter. I occasionally simply go for a walk and look around being here and today I notices a bit of anxiety. A though crossed my head “I’m wasting time!” .
This comes from the idea and belief that doing nothing equals wasting time which I developed from directing it. It was from a drive to keep myself busy to distract myself from myself to use it as an excuse saying I have no time for myself. This also links into the fear I had of getting older. Everything is connected. It got to a point where I did not allow myself to simply do something I like like watching a movie or something.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take some time for myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create anxiety within myself when going for a walk doing nothing in particular.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply doing nothing in particular and taking time for myself to do something I enjoy and to see it as me wasting time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the Idea and belief that doing anything for myself is a waste of time
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a workaholic as a distraction from myself.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my fear of getting older is the reason why I fear wasting time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking some time for myself.
I commit myself to stop the belief that doing nothing and taking time for myself is a waste of time – instead I allow myself to take some time.
I commit myself to stop the fear and anxiety when I take some time for myself – instead I realize that taking time for myself is important
I commit myself to stop being a workaholic as a distraction from myself – instead I focus on myself.
I commit myself to when I take walks to breathe and be here in moment and not allow thoughts and feelings to direct me.
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