Anger is often described as an all-consuming fire that rages within. And that is a pretty accurate description. So what is it that lights the fire? What is it starts the spark and sets loose the anger within? What is the fuel that keeps it going? It could be many things or one thing – maybe someone insulted you or there is a crazy driver in front of you. Maybe you took something personally or you are tired of something. Whatever the reason there is only answer as to what or who puts the match to the inner fire of anger - ME.
Whatever the reason is the anger is always created by yourself. If someone insults me and I get angry – I am the one who allowed the anger within me. The same in any situation – I am always the one creating the anger.
For example a few months ago I developed back problems. Now I was very active physically so a bad back made it almost impossible for me to do simple things. Eventually the whole situation made me angry. What happened then is that whenever my back hurt I would get angry – so I linked anger to my back pain.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry because I am unable to do things I usually could since my back got hurt.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to this anger and became quickly reactive and irritable.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I created this anger within myself and that I am the one who allowed it to continue exist within me – within this I am the only one who can let it go.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to when I am angry to feed the anger by with thoughts and backchat to keep the anger going.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at myself, because I judged myself as being useless. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a useless and whenever I was unable to do a task to allow myself to create anger within myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to whenever my back pain got bad to immediately react with anger – instead of breathing through it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to the anger and not let go of the anger and stop it as soon as it comes up.
I commit myself to realize that I am always the one who creates the reactions within myself and that I am responsible for every one of them.
I commit myself to stop getting angry at myself when I am unable to do something – instead I breathe and realize that anger will not solve anything
I commit myself to when I do get angry to stop the anger and immediately let it go and not to feed the anger with backchat and thoughts.
I commit myself to stop judging myself as being useless and getting angry about it – instead I do what I am able to and realize that it is all I can do.
I commit myself to stop linking my back pain to anger – instead when the pain comes I breathe through it and do not react.
So yes – pain is painful, but it is useless and pointless to get all angry about it. In the End it is not the pain that causes anger. I create I anger.