Day 286: Relationships – Why this Desire will be the end of you.

 

I  know the title may sound a tad bit dramatic, but so is life so sit back and relax and continue reading – you just might learn something. We all have this – the desire to be with someone. It becomes more prominent in our teenage years where most of that time is spent on chasing or finding “ THE ONE”. I know I had my fair share of chasing and trying to find somebody to love. It’s a dangerous thing really – Desire - and I’ll show you why.

Desire is something that will completely direct and control your life. Desire is such a feel good feeling that we simply give into without much fight. Desire is something that will override any common sense or particular principles you live by – you simply forget all of that and follow the desire no matter where the road ends. That is what makes Desire so dangerous – you lose direction in your life by giving in to desire.

I’m sure many of us had those moments – where the point of desire stares you right in the face and all you have to do is give in, lean in and grab it – no matter the consequences. And at that moment all common sense fades away and it just feels right.

For me it was a girl, a long time ago. You know the story: Boy meets girl, they become best friends, after time they become more. The only twist was that the girl had a boyfriend. Now I am what you would call a nice guy. I always saw myself as a person who would not date a girl who already has a boyfriend, but my desire showed me otherwise. I remember what went through my head – what made me do it. This desire for relationships simply took over any reasoning or common sense or morals or principles I lived by – I simply said F**k that and gave in. And so began a secret behind the scenes relationship rooted from desire.

So that’s a simple example of Desire. The problem with Desire and what makes it so dangerous is that it’s something we really really want. We do not want to look at it objectively and let it go when we know it will not benefit our lives or who we are. Instead we want to chase that desire, that feel good feeling. When it comes to the desire for relationships – we meet someone and we really want to make it work – simply because we desire having a relationship. What most do not see here is that it’s not the other person they actually like, but it’s the idea of having a relationship that they are after. So in the end it has very little to do with the actual person you found, but rather its all about having the desire of relationship fulfilled.

And that is no way of actually living – chasing this desire or idea of relationship. Would it not be better if it was real? Curing aloneness is not by being with somebody else. Chasing relationships is not the answer to filling the emptiness you feel. The first step is getting to know yourself, and being comfortable with yourself, and caring for yourself and loving yourself.

A real relationship has nothing to do with fulfillment or desire – it’s taking responsibility for another being and supporting them to be the best they can be. Now, what does that mean exactly? Let us see the answer in the next blog

Doing it for Myself

 

Doing something for yourself is considered being selfish. Today I am looking at another dimension of this word. A big part of this journey to life is to write about yourself or to write yourself out - basically focus on yourself to become an effective living human being. Some may see this as being selfish saying " you must help others to make this world a better place, so focusing on yourself is being selfish!!!". The question here is: how does one / can one assist others when you can’t even /haven’t assisted yourself? You start with yourself to be effective and to be able to support another.

We’re all like in a big steaming pile of quicksand - before you can pull others out, you have to first get yourself out. Like what they tell you in the airplane safety video "In the unlikely event when there is trouble with the plane, first secure your own oxygen mask before helping others". It is not being selfish - you simply can’t help others when you are suffocating.

Within this all, I do I look at my starting point for example working around the farm and watering trees or planting trees. I am doing it for the trees - to feed the trees and grow more. Within this I am doing it for myself as well, support and assist myself to be here in the moment.

What brought this point up was with doing a particular task that you do not like or have no issue with like cleaning for example. It does not bother me when a house is not sparkling clean - I have no issue with a house that is not exactly clean, but my partner does. So when I cleaned I did not do it for myself, but I did it for her because it makes her happy. The problem with this is: I create an expectation within myself of how the other person will react to me cleaning and being happy and when a event occurs that does not meet my expectations I get angry. Within this I realized that Although I was cleaning "for the other person" from a selfless point it was not in fact unconditional. I was cleaning "for her" to be happy and when she is happy I am satisfied - but then the reason I cleaned was for me to be happy, which was depended from another persons actions.

I am not saying that you should NOT do  something for another person - simply look at the starting point. Now I feed two birds with one big piece of bread ( The 2 birds, 1 stone thing is not cool): I clean to assist and support myself to be active and working/aligning with the physical again after a long time being unable to due to my condition AND it satisfies my partner. Now I actually enjoy having a clean house.

Day 129 - Only 2 weeks left to learn Ascension!!!

 

 

 

The end of the world is almost here - With only a little more that 2 weeks left! So we need to get our vibration effective so that we can escape this horrible world to a new better place - the grass is always greener on the other side! 

What if you had a new born child? Will you be able to to teach the baby to ascend? What if you ascend before your children? Will you be able to come back? Would you really want to go if your loved ones cant come with you?

Its is understandable to want to leave this world behind  and go to another place that is free from suffering.  And for some the only way to deal with that is to block out and ignore the bad shit that is happening every second of every minute of every hour of every day. Ignoring something doesn't make it cease to exist.

To want to ascend it to leave all the bad stuff behind, to run away from responsibility. We Created this world! We cannot blame negative. Positive thoughts cannot exist without negative thoughts. We have to look at the origin of these thoughts – We create them. Its part of who we are. And its ‘’who we are’’ that's the real issue here. Even if you were to ascend that ‘’who you are’’ is going with you and will eventually make the other as messed up this one.

So we have to change who we are. We created this world in our image and likeness – what does that say about us? We are truly evil.

So we here at Desteni are going to be ones who stay behind. We are going to make this world the life everyone should have. To actually give a dam about nature and earth and thy neighbor.  To make this world free from abuse.

We do this by changing who we are. To annihilate the inherit evil and become beings who always live that which is best for all and in this make all abuse impossible to be part of reality ever again.

We understand one fundamental point – nothing will change unless the human change.

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Day 127 - Divine Awareness

 

There is nothing divine about being aware. Its an commitment - a life long commitment to be aware of yourself and the environment. The real physical world - the only world that exist an matters - not some delusional happy light and love place in the clouds that you spend your whole trying to get to and then ignore the real world. Anyway - back to my blog

Today I am righting about a point I wrote about in my last blog over here: CLICK  ME. It was basically about an event that took place as a consequence of me not being aware. So here goes the method to make sure this doesn't’ happen again:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be aware of myself and environment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to be aware and give somebody else the responsibility for a while

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to ''take a break'' for a while and abdicate my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have been responsible for long enough and that means I don't have to be all the time anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others when the truck got stuck and to believe that it was not my responsibility when it was

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when the truck got stuck to go into anxiety, because i fear that the truck might be damaged or damaged the spillway.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when it happened to wish that I could go back in time and stop this from happening, instead if looking back and see how i can stop this from happening in the future.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to push through the resistance and stop the thought ''I don't have to be responsible anymore'' and realize that if i stopped that single thought the whole truck in mud event would not have happened.

I commit myself to to push myself to be aware of myself and the environment at all times no matter what

I commit myself to stop the believe that i can take a break from being aware of myself and the environment - instead I realize that if i do take a break things might slip by me

I commit myself to be responsible and self responsible for as as i breath in air of this world we as humanity are busy destroying and realize that if i do not take self responsibility - the world does not have a chance

I commit myself to stop wanting to blame others - instead I take self responsibly

I Commit myself to stop wishing I could go back and change things - instead I find ways to make sure i do not make the same mistake again

I commit

I commit myself to stop these thoughts so that it does not direct me , but so that i can be the directive principle in my life.

I commit myself to not allow a feeling or a thought to affect my effectiveness, instead i commit myself to be consistently effective.

Day 108 - Doing it for Others

 

Please read this first quickly to understand this blog

  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only do things for other people and ignore myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i do not need to take care of myself and that i must dedicate my life to only help others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that other people are more important than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place other things like people and tasks above me where I am inferior an not important

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others have more worth than I do

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i cannot only help others, but that i must also assist myself so that I can become more effective in assisting others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when participating  in farm activities to not be aware of myself in what I do.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to write music for others, not realizing that ill be more effective and it would be more enjoyable if I wrote for myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to only write these blogs for other people and not me, not realizing that this is the reason why its so difficult for me to write, I'm missing me within it

I commit myself to write for me, for me to become more effective and in that as I become more effective I can assist other better  - write for myself for others.

I commit myself to write music for myself as others

I commit myself to stop placing others above me, to stop seeing others as more important, worthy, but to instead stand equal.

I commit myself to when I participate in farm activities like planting trees, to not only do it so that the tree can grow  -for the tree - but to also do it for me - where im aware of myself and the plant and realize that I'm working with a living being.

I commit myself to realize that I will always stay the same if I do not change something -

I commit myself to be aware of myself always

I realize the reason why I do what I do - because I understand there is a problem in the world and that I have the power to change it - through writing fir me to become more effective for others to also realize there's a solution. Trough music as to bring a message across and living as an example.

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Day 87 - Change with assistance from Desteni: Self Trust 3

 

This is a continuation of how I learnt to trust myself with help from Desteni. Part 2 is here.

 

With hands on earth work I learnt self trust and how to become confident within what I do. Today i will write about the inside process of change - for example working through emotions and feelings like depression, anxiety, fear etc.

Just like the physical work and a new project that i am doing - working through new points and changing myself i am faced with lots of fear and self doubt. Its a whole new point and i have no idea how to get past it. I do not know if i will be able to do it. I have no self trust within myself when facing this new project - these are the usual thoughts that come up when facing a new point.

As I mentioned in my previous post i am a 'go with the flow'' guy. I never questioned my feelings and emotions and why i like certain things or why i do certain things. For example i was depressed in school - and through all the pain and anger I never even considered that i created the depression and that i have the power to end it. Everything always happened to ME - where it should have been I always have choice within it - I create what happens inside of me.

So when it came to actually changing myself so that i can stop being angry at the world and blaming others - I had zero trust within myself. How could i have when i never proved to myself that I am able to let go and change? But that should not be a reason to not do it. Self trust must be built and be consistent and proven over and over.

This is taken from my previous blog:

'''And after many projects there is a patter forming - that no matter the project I was able to do it''

The same happens to working through anger, depression, jealousy, self judgement etc. After a while a pattern starts forming and i have realized a point of stability within myself. That all the points i have faced i was able to move past it. I realized that no matter what point i am faced with or going to face - i have the power to move past it. Self trust and confidence. There are still some points where i go ''O shit! what do i do''. And when something seems too big or i doubt myself I go to the point of stability - that i have the power, thanks to Desteni.

With self forgiveness, self honesty and self corrective application you are able to change any point within yourself ***.

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Day 70 - The Hope Character

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the Hope Character to help me cope with life and to not make it seem so bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in this character use hope when i do not want to the actual work when wanting something done but to instead simply hope it will get done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that I will feel better tomorrow instead if realizing that if i do nothing then nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that the hungry people in the world will get fed - not realizing that if i do not do something about it and only hope then nothing will happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that everything will be ok tomorrow - not realizing that if I do not move myself and find the solution to my problems then nothing will change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Hope I pass the exams when i did not prepare myself effectively and thus abdicated responsibility 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i give away my self responsibility when i hope and do nothing but hope

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that simpl y hoping will get things done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that with hope the things i hope for will magically happen without me having to do anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use hope as an excuse not to have to do anything, because hoping for something is really easy - instead of realizing that i cannot just hope and then do nothing - i have to create physically that which I hope for 

I commit myself to stop the hope character and realize that it is useless to hope

I commit myself to realize that when I do a task and complete in my mind and hope it will be as it is in my mind without realizing that the physical reality is not the same as my mind  it is useless

I commit myself to realize that hoping some task will be done without me actually doing something and physically moving then it will not happen

I commit myself to realize that hoping i will feel better tomorrow without me finding the problems and working them out and finding solutions then i will still be the same and nothing will change

I commit myself to realize that hoping the hungry people will be fed is useless - because if i do not do something about it then nothing will happen

I commit myself to realize that hoping is an excuse and me not wanting to do any actual work because hoping is very easy

I commit myself to take self responsibility by stopping the hoping for something by doing the actual physical action required in order to get something done

I commit myself to realize that hoping for something will not make it magically be so unless i do something about it

Day 66 - Being a good Person is actually being Selfish

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the '' I am a Good person character to help me deal with situations in life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this character is real
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as a good character by changing my voice to a higher pitch when speaking to others so that they can see i am a good person and then be more likely to accept me and agree with me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate others by setting myself up as being a good person to avoid conflict - not realizing that i created this character out of fear of conflict
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to fear conflict so much that I would create the I am a good person character as a defensive mechanism just to avoid it
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into this character with others as an attempt to not be judged by others = not realizing that i don't fear their judgement but that i have the judgement within myself already so it is me I who is judging myself
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when as a child to when i saw somebody got yelled at for not being good - to make the conclusion that i should then present myself as being good so that i do not get yelled at - because i fear being yelled at
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being a good person is for the benefit of others and that i am doing others a service by being good with them - not realized that i am being selfish because i am only being good to benefit myself and my life and if i has nothing to gain from being good i will not be a good person
I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that being good is not about a feeling or to feel good about being good - but to do something because it is what i would have liked for myself - to do something through understanding the need for it  and that it needs to be done regardless of how i feel about it, because then i am self directed and not depending and limited by a feeling
I commit myself to delete the 'i am a good person character
I commit myself to stop manipulating others by changing my voice a little higher to make them like me
I commit myself to stop wanting to get something from others by being the good person
I commit myself to to stop going into this character to get others to like and accept me and to stop seeking acceptance from others but to instead accept myself
I commit myself to stop going into this character to avoid conflict but to instead if hiding away from conflict to face it
I commit myself to stop going into this character to avoid being judged by others - not realizing that i am the one who who is judging myself and so to stop judging myself
I commit myself to stop the believe that i need this character to be able to avoid being yelled at
I commit myself to see that being a good person is being selfish and based in self interest - because I depend on a feeling before I do something - So i then instead to do something through understanding the need for it  and that it needs to be done regardless of how i feel about it, because then i am self directed and not depending and limited by a feeling so
I commit myself to stop wanting to get something from others by being the good person