Journey to life day 33 - Why should I do it?!

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat in relation to fairness and my believe of what is fair when I have to do something that somebody else could have done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when asked to do something become irritated and and angry  because I have to do it and want somebody else to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to become angry at the person who asked me to do it and then have thoughts about shouting at them why should I do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not fair that I have to do it - but that somebody else must do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the anger and irritability I experience is because I so not want to do it - and out of that use backchat because I want someone else to do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that fairness doesn't exist - and that i have a created a perception of what is fair and not fair and. And if fairness really existed this world would not be what it is today

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that wanting somebody else to do it is ego - its me seeing myself as better than others and trying to assert authority just because i don’t want to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful  in wanting somebody else to do it, because i want them go through the discomfort I went through

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the answer for the question ''why should i do it'' is ''because im able to''. And that anything else is me wanting to abdicate responsibility and laziness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to take responsibility but rather let somebody else take responsibility - not realizing that  in this i am without self direction and will in no way be able to sort out this world to make it a better place to live in but that i will always want somebody else to do it. And then when everybody wants somebody else to do it we end up with a world we see today...

I commit myself to when ask to do something stop the backchat and the anger and the irritability and the urge to say WHY ME

I commit myself to do something simply because I'm able to

I commit myself to do more than what is expected of me when i am able to

I commit myself to not use the excuse i have done it many times before its time you do it when i don't feel like doing something

I commit myself to see that the world is not fair and in that fairness doesn't exist  and so not use the excuse of 'its not fair'

I commit myself to let go the delusion that is my ego - to realize that as long as i have an ego i can never make a difference in this world but will always contribute to its abusiveness

I commit myself to stop the spitefulness that comes with wanting somebody else to do it - to want them to go though the discomfort I have - but to instead live my life so that no being will have to go through unnecessary discomfort

Journey to life day 6 – Teeth Rotting Fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear all my teeth will rot

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I get more holes I will have to go to the dentist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the dentist because of my past experiences with pain from getting fillings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting my teeth filled because it would cost allot of money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by this fear and believe that is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be effected an moved by this fear and that I allowed myself to be influenced by this fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to every time when I look at my teeth experience fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to anticipate when my teeth will get holes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is something wrong with me because of my bad teeth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having any teeth.

I commit myself to stop the fear of my teeth rotting

I commit myself to the fear of going the dentist and pain – I see that it is based on my past experiences 

I commit myself to see that the fear is not real

I commit myself to be the directive principle and not allow fear to direct me

2012 - How I was able to hear the Desteni message

So I’m the Portal’s brother. I’ll start with a short history to show what kind of background we came from and how I knew without any doubt that the Desteni massage is real and a solution that everyone who wants to see change in this world must consider.

I was born and raised a Christian along with my sisters. My original language is Afrikaans so we were a typical Afrikaans Christian family. I never bothered with sci-fi, paranormal, otherworldly stuff or looked for aliens. I simply didn’t believe any of the stuff. I never even heard of mediums until I was 18. I never heard of ascension or the white light and knew nothing of new Age or spiritual masters. I didn’t even believe in demons. Only that Satan makes us sin and Jesus forgives them. I was a typical afrikaaner who believed I will go to heaven if I’m good and that God and Jesus loves me.

If I looked back at my childhood and summed it up and looked at the overall experience – it was really good. We were one of the lucky ones – we had both parents who raised us well and were always in a stable environment.

The death of our mother marked a change that affected us all in surprisingly different ways. For me I simply shut down and suppressed my feelings and ‘’suffered in silence’’. Basically I hid myself from others.

It was then when I started to see that something is wrong with what I believed in. I still didn’t wonder where I go when I die. I was either going to hell or cease to exist when I die. It didn’t really give a shit. I knew one thing – life is really messed up and there doesn’t seem to be a way to make it any better.

I met Bernard through sunette who was already living with the group for a while. What was fascinating about Bernard the first time I met him is that he gave a look - Like he could see inside me. Which I didn’t like back then because I was an introvert – hiding myself from others. I didn’t want people to see me or know how I feel. But if I look at it now the real point was that I didn’t even know what was really going on inside me. So the fact that he could see through me was very interesting. How can he know more about me than I do?

So I would say that caused the first spark of curiosity and why I wanted to find out more.

It was only after a few months of living with the group – and back then the group was small and we didn’t have a website yet – that I started to get a glimpse of how trapped we really are and how limited as well. And how I knew nothing about myself and what I knew wasn’t real – lol. I was very sceptical about it all at first. But one thing I could not deny was that the fact that the portal was real. That my sister actually left her body and other beings came through into her body. I knew it was real because I know my sister. The words the beings spoke and all the things they shared it was impossible for her to know all of it – because I grew up with her and never in our lives had we access to anything like it. We didn’t even know about channelling. Another thing that fascinated me is that the beings could see right inside you and could explain in an instant in extreme detail points within me I never shared with anyone and some I wasn’t even aware off. And to top it off they added support on how to deal with it - And to top that off in a way I could understand it and apply it. It was with these tools I got over my depression and faced many other points.

And the perspectives each of the beings shared was amazing. It was shocking to learn how little we really knew. There is a massive problem in this world and nobody is even aware of it.We are all trapped in our own little bubbles.

I remember Bernard asking a question – ‘’How do we get people to listen to something they don’t want to hear?’’. And that is what the group of Desteni have been busy with. Everyday consistently in whatever way spreading practical common sense. Back then it was a small group. This small group took me in and gave me support all the way and I have had the privilege to see it grow. And in the 5 years I have been participating I never came across any other group or ‘’answer’’ that considered EVERYTHING. A solution for the human to become educated and self directed to never again be able to be manipulated or deceived by self or others. And solution for earth where we can live in a world were all beings are considered and we live by what is best for all.

Another point about Desteni and the message of Desteni is that no matter what it always comes back to self. I have to make the change. I can test the information for myself.There was nobody I could blame. I could see that I was responsible for MYSELF. And that I had the power to change myself. That there is no higher power going to do it for me or some mighty saviour coming to save us from ourselves. If I wanted to live in a better world I am going to have to participate in the solution to make it happen.

So how do we get people to listen to something they don’t want to hear? How did I listen? I could see for myself it was the real thing. The portal is my sister after all. And I tested self forgiveness and self honesty for myself. If something works it works. No matter how hard I tried to hold on to my ideas and beliefs I could not hide from common sense.

Desteni - It’s like a slap-in-the-face-wakeup-call

How Silence Brings Life

Self silence is when nothing moves in you – you are here. No thing that is not self directed moves within you.

Obviously this is a process so what we do is use Breath to be able to see the thoughts feelings and emotions as they come up.

We Humans are not breathing – we are not aware of our breath which is shocking because breathing is that which gives us life.

If you look at dolphins – their breathing is not automatic – they have to physically with awareness take a breath and can choose not to take the next breath and die.

So when you are aware of your breath you are here – when you not aware of your breath your in your head in another world. So when you notice you are not in fact breathing here you know your not here. Then you look at what thoughts came up in that moment that kept you from being here and do forgiveness on it with effective self corrective statements that you can live by.

Same with emotions and feelings – as they come up you deal with it. Anything that moves in you that you didn't direct you must investigate what it is and deal with it immediately.  You want to eventually have nothing move in you – silence Here. This is a process of becoming self directed where nothing can move you.

If you are asking what is self forgiveness go here – www.desteni.org

Desteniproductions Terminated–What Now?

 

YouTube Decided today to Terminate DESTENIPRODUCTIONS,  BERNARDPOOLMAN, DESTENIEXPOSED and DESTENIMONEY and DESTENIPRODDEMONS due to alleged violations – These channels have in no way violated any terms of use regarding the terms.

They were all taken down pretty much at the same time. The message of equality and real practical solutions is what was being presented and that is what is being silenced. Up to 3000 supportive videos!

YouTube is deceptive – they will keep videos like porn but terminate those that stand for life.

BUT – those are only 5 channels. And to those haters who still don't get it – We are many – Desteni is a  GROUP of individuals who are working towards a solution for this life. And as a growing group of people we will not stop.

Yes it started with Desteni – a principle – Desteniproductions. But now those who can see and hear the message and who are busy incorporating the principle of life in their daily lives  as the Destonians we have become will not stop.

I cant stop – I see this world is in desperate need for change and im not the only one. Its common sense that cannot be denied.

So if anything this will only strengthen our resolve.