Day 221: Have you reached your Full potential?

 

The title almost sounds like something they tell you in school. The potential I am writing about is your life potential. In the following blogs I am going to expand on the points in this document and what it means to me. Today I am writing about the first point which is: Realizing and living my utmost potential.

There are two parts to this – the first part is realizing your potential.

Before I started this process I did not even look or imagine that I had any kind of potential. I sis nor even conceive that I could do more – be more effective. I believed that I was going to be the way I am for the rest of my life.

Since starting walking this process of self-perfection those beliefs faded away. I started questioning my life and how I lived it and what I have allowed to exists within me. My first big point I faced within myself was my depression. When I faced that point and walked past it I realized that I had the power to change my life for the better. I realized that I had in fact potential.

The second part is Living your utmost potential.

Realizing my potential was difficult, because it means facing the fact that you can actually change. It is realizing that all the excuses I had for not changing myself and not moving myself like fear, doubt or believing I am to weak or not good enough simply isn’t valid anymore. And that means the only thing keeping me from Living my utmost potential is myself. Living your utmost potential is even harder. It is to move through the resistance that comes up when you change something about yourself that you have lived for many years.

A few years ago I believed I was doing enough and that it is impossible to do more than what I was doing back then. The funny thing was that a while after that I was doing way more than I did before, but back then I believed was living my full potential – but that was not true. It is very easy to sit back and say to yourself “I cannot do more”, but deep down inside you see you can do more.

Before I was a very lazy person – I really disliked any kind of effort and always opted for the easiest path that has the less effort involved. I had to walk past this self-created laziness in order to live my utmost potential and have come a long way now, but it is still a work in progress.

Ill expand some more in the next blog.

Day 85 - Change with assistance from Desteni (part 1)

 

Here i am going to write about one of the many ways i have changed with the assistance of the Desteni Tools.

Before i became a part of this group I was a ridiculously lazy person. In school I never really read books  so for my book reports I always used the same book - which i read when i was a child. I always finished homework the night before or the morning at school and sometimes i simply did not do it. The same with assignments: we get like a month to do it, but I did it the day before usually.

At home i did not really have any chores to do except take out the trash once a week and maintaining the pool - and I always had resistance towards doing it. And within everything i did i always did it to the bare minimum and quickest way to get it done so that I do not have to put much effort into it.

All this was about to change with the tools I learned from Desteniiprocess 

When we first got to the farm I faced this laziness head on - because living on a farm requires some hard work, but it actually started to become fun. It was enjoyable, because everything i did mattered. I could see the results and everything accumulating and where there was once a crappy rusted fence there was a new one and it will last for many years. Where there one was an open piece of land there is now an orchard bearing fruit. All that hard work - digging and planting trees - they were very tiny trees when i planted them and no they are big and fruit bearing trees.

The resistance i felt before regarding work went away, because I did not see it as work. It became something that needs to be done - I understand the need for it and so i do it.

This is a reason why people believe that an equal money system will never work, because people are lazy and would rather sit on a beach all day. But what people are doing now is slaving long hours doing mundane work where the actual job does not contribute to anything that maters and that is not necessary in terms of practicality, but they do it because they need money. And that brings resistance. That all will fall away, because we will be doing practical things that matter and contribute to the whole. And like i did we will come to understand the necessity  of what we will do - like producing food for everybody or cleaning the oceans.

 

If we all work through understanding we will have a better world. Vote here for a better world - www.equalmoney.org

Journey to life day 33 - Why should I do it?!

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have backchat in relation to fairness and my believe of what is fair when I have to do something that somebody else could have done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when asked to do something become irritated and and angry  because I have to do it and want somebody else to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to become angry at the person who asked me to do it and then have thoughts about shouting at them why should I do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not fair that I have to do it - but that somebody else must do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the anger and irritability I experience is because I so not want to do it - and out of that use backchat because I want someone else to do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that fairness doesn't exist - and that i have a created a perception of what is fair and not fair and. And if fairness really existed this world would not be what it is today

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that wanting somebody else to do it is ego - its me seeing myself as better than others and trying to assert authority just because i don’t want to do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful  in wanting somebody else to do it, because i want them go through the discomfort I went through

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the answer for the question ''why should i do it'' is ''because im able to''. And that anything else is me wanting to abdicate responsibility and laziness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to take responsibility but rather let somebody else take responsibility - not realizing that  in this i am without self direction and will in no way be able to sort out this world to make it a better place to live in but that i will always want somebody else to do it. And then when everybody wants somebody else to do it we end up with a world we see today...

I commit myself to when ask to do something stop the backchat and the anger and the irritability and the urge to say WHY ME

I commit myself to do something simply because I'm able to

I commit myself to do more than what is expected of me when i am able to

I commit myself to not use the excuse i have done it many times before its time you do it when i don't feel like doing something

I commit myself to see that the world is not fair and in that fairness doesn't exist  and so not use the excuse of 'its not fair'

I commit myself to let go the delusion that is my ego - to realize that as long as i have an ego i can never make a difference in this world but will always contribute to its abusiveness

I commit myself to stop the spitefulness that comes with wanting somebody else to do it - to want them to go though the discomfort I have - but to instead live my life so that no being will have to go through unnecessary discomfort

Journey to life day 22 + 24 - Being Mooooooooody (updated)

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become moody

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to in my moodiness become irritated and snap at people

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world around me for what is happening to me

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see that i created the moodiness through accumulated  backchat of thoughts that i have not stopped

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to stop the backchat

I commit myself to stop the backchat of thoughts, feelings and emotions that lead to me being moody and getting irritated and snapping at people

I commit myself to stop blaming the world for what i am responsible for


So the above i wrote on my day 22, but as you can see it is very short and unspecific which in not acceptable. What happened is that i wrote a blog but the connection dropped when i pressed post and i didn't  save the blog so I lost all my writing. I didn't want to redo all my writing so i wrote the above - which was not acceptable so here we go:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my blog got deleted as an excuse not to be consistent

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not want to redo a blog and use the excuse i already did it and don't need to do it again

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become angry at the computer for losing my blog

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself not become angry at myself for not saving my blog

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to to give into resistances and not do what i know i should  have done

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to then try and get away with the bare minimum just because i don't want to redo a post

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if  i am unwilling to redo what i do then what i do is not real and has no meaning or value and thus i have to prove to myself consistency by being willing to redo everything i did.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to to be consistent no matter what the circumstance


I commit myself to not use excuses when i don't feel like doing something
I commit myself to stop being lazy

I commit myself to be consistent no matter what

I commit myself to if i have to redo what i did to prove to myself that i am indeed able to

I commit myself to not be inconsistent when i experience resistances

I commit myself to push through these resistances so that i can do what i said i would

I commit myself to not again post half done crap but to put out to the best of my ability

I Commit myself to see that my action doesn't just effect me, but effects others and that has consequences on a whole lot more than just my world. So commit myself to consider the consequences and outflows of my actions.