Day 119 - Gluten Free frustrations and Addictions

 

Here is my previous blog on Day 1 Gluten Free : Day 1. Here now follows day 2

This is now my second day without gluten - have not notices any changes physically yet, but it is to soon to tell. I did however notice a ridiculous craving to eat allot of food. Its like I just want to eat and eat like an addiction and I end up eating more than I should, because I mistake hunger for crave and then i believe myself to be hungry all the time

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be sad that i wont be able to eat the food i like anymore

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be frustrated that it is now more difficult to make myself food and the convenience is gone

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself that i have created this situation for myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for putting myself in this position

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to to eat more food now to fill the gap and make myself happy, because Im sad that i cant eat my favorite foods anymore

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create this deep craving within myself and believe that it is hunger and then eat more food

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the food i eat where if i go without it I go through a withdrawal

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have thoughts of '' just one more piece of bread - will do no harm'' that makes my cravings bigger and then I eat more other foods.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when i could still eat what i liked without consequence to take it for granted

I commit myself to to sop the sadness - instead I am grateful that I have food to eat

I commit myself to stop being frustrated - instead i see that being frustrated wont change a thing

I commit myself to stop blaming myself and be angry at myself - instead i breath and realize that being angry and blaming myself gets me nowhere

I commit myself to  stop eating more than i should  - instead I eat enough

I commit myself to stop trying to find loop holes and excuses for me to stop this gluten free things - instead I commit to my commitment

I commit myself to realize that I am not in fact hungry all the time, but that it is the caving and addiction to food

I commit myself to stop the ridiculous craving - instead i breath and do not allow it to affect me.

 

Lets see how tomorrow goes. If you are a first time reader and have no idea what's going on i am getting rid of my limitations to realize my full potential and effectiveness.

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Day 118 - I like Food - allot

 

I like eating food. Good tasty food. Some of the food I like eating is the following:

• Fresh bread
• Weet-bix
• pancakes
• flapjacks
• Fresh bread
• cornflakes
• Fresh bread
• Fresh bread
• Fresh bread
• Fresh bread
• Fresh bread

I do like Fresh bread. One of my favorite things to eat is fresh fresh bread just out the oven with butter - mmm. The reason im listing these foods is because Since today I stopped eating wheat foods, more specifically gluten related foods. And most the foods I like have gluten. The reason I stopped eating Gluten is part of an on going test to see what physical reaction is causing my stomach problems - im looking for the physical manifestation of my anxiety that i created.

Since I stopped eating gluten I have become very frustrated, irritated...and I little depressed. What I have noticed is that I have become sad, because food made me happy - tasty food makes me feel good and now it takes longer to make myself food.

It is interesting that now going gluten-free it takes more time to make myself food. I usually for lunch go for what is quick and easy - bread or whatever - because i dont spend too much time making it and eating it. But now I have no choice but to prepare and plan what i eat.

This is why I am frustrated and irritated - it is now more of an effort to eat and i do not like not being able to eat certain foods.

Thank you for reading - an update on this tomorrow to assist myself to not me depressed, irritated and frustrated and angry .