Journey to Life Day 40 - Being the ''Good Guy''

 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to  create the good guy character and to become this character believing it is me and real

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be the good guy in some situations because I want others to like me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want others to like and accept me that I will go as far as creating a character that fits in and people like

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself for others by being the good guy and do all the crappy stuff so that people can accept and like me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as less important than others and always place them first and above me to make sure they will like me for it

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become something unreal and made up by being the good guy just so that i can fit in

I forgive myself that i have bot accepted and allowed myself to realize that being the good  guy i compromise myself and who i am by becoming a character just for a desire to be liked

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to  realize that my desire to be liked and accepted is because i have not accepted myself and believe that others will give me the acceptance i want

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that wanting to be accepted by people who will believe the character I have created will mean that they themselves are characters and not real as life is

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize That I am sacrificing myself through compromise and belief by being the good guy - and in being this good guy just to be liked is actually an act of selfishness

I commit myself to stop the good guy character

I commit myself to not use any character just to get people to like me

I commit myself to not sacrifice myself for the sake of others to like me

I commit myself to stop compromising myself for others so that they can like me

I commit myself to see that others are not more important than I am so I stop placing them above me

I commit myself to stop the desire for wanting others to like and accept me and to the accept myself and stop all characters

I commit myself to get real by stopping all my characters to see what remains and to see wanting to be around characters there can be no life

I commit myself to not be characters to it in certain situations because i believe its the only way and also not to be myself because i see who I am is allot of characters - I commit myself to keep deleting the characters

Journey to life day 13 – Rushing is pointless

Journey to life day 13 – Rushing is pointless

 

When walking from point A to point B I walk fast paced and in my head I have the destination in place.

Within doing this I’m rushing to get to the destination fast. And doing this you are not here in the moment but in your head and thus you miss out on the world around you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get to my destination fast.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush myself when walking, in doing so not seeing the world around me and unaware of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get to believe that I have no time and thus must compromise myself by not being here in breath  by rushing.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to breathe and be here self-aware

I commit myself to when walking to walk slower and be aware of the world around me

I commit myself to stop rushing to get to a point faster

I commit myself to be HERE