Day 4 – Escape to the Stars and Beyond

When I was young I liked lying down on the porch at night and stare at the stars. It filled me with amazement. Tonight I was sitting on a chair outside and looked at the stars – very bright and abundant from the farm which is  away from city light that drown out the sky. And as I looked at the stars I was filled with a longing. A want to just go there. But it’s more a want to get away from here – this world and all its shit - To leave it all behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be filled with a longing when I look at stars – a desire to escape this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape this world and seeing it as too much to change it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face the abuse and shit we have allowed in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing what we have allowed within this world, in this not wanting to take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take self-responsibility for what I have created part of this world

I commit myself to take self-responsibility for my world – seeing that when everybody takes self-responsibility for their worlds we create a self-responsible world

I commit myself to not face away from the shit of this world – but to do all I’m able to do my part in making it a world worth living in

I commit myself to not want to escape to an imaginary world where everything is fine – but instead I commit myself to actually create it and make it a reality