Day 187 - Not being Good with people - The Silent Type...

 

Today I ran into somebody and said hello and the usual greetings. I notice that I am always uncomfortable in these situations and usually simply smile and find ways to end the conversation. I have always been “the silent type” and was never really good at meeting new people. I have defined myself as being the strong silent type and told myself it’s a “lifestyle choice”. That is a very nice way to hide from the fact that I am not good with people, because I never really worked on this point or developed the skills in order to be effective with people.

What happens then is that when I run into somebody I know the uncomfortable feeling I have is not knowing how to handle myself in this particular situation. I see other people being al relaxed and genuine when in the same situation, like it is natural and then I would judge myself for not being so natural and ask myself why I cannot do this. The answer is simple – I never taught myself how. I have the tools to do this and it is time to start.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be uncomfortable when running into someone I know

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to investigate the reason why I am uncomfortable and to simply accept it as a part of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being the silent type – not realizing that I did this, because I was not good/effective with people.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work on becoming good/effective with people and push through to make it happen.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the uncomfortable feeling I have is because of thoughts and feelings and the belief that I have created that I am not good with people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I meet/greet people to allow thoughts and feelings to direct me and then want to end the conversation based on that instead of not allowing myself to be direct and to direct myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even before I go to the person to meet/greet them create anxiety within myself, because I am already thinking about how I am going to do this and remember that I am not good with people.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop the thoughts and feelings and not to participate in the moment with the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to breathe and be here in the moment focusing on what I am doing right now when I meet people – within this I realize that doing this removes all that unnecessary bullcrap that complicate things from the equation and give me the opportunity to actually participate within what I am doing.

I commit myself to stop defining myself as being the silent type and not good with people – instead I push myself to practice and develop a natural expression in order to be effective with people.

I commit myself to stop participating in thoughts and feelings and beliefs when I meet/greet people that I define as being uncomfortable – Instead I breathe and be here in the moment focusing on what I am doing

I commit myself to stop wanting to end conversations based on how I feel at the moment – Instead I Direct myself and don’t allow feelings and thoughts to direct me

Journey to Life Day 37 - ''You cant change this World''

 

This particular character is one who looks at others dedicating their life's to make this world a better place - but instead to join in they say '' you do know that its impossible right?''. And it said without even the them lifting a finger to see for themselves if its impossible or not. You can never know unless you have given it your best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of giving up before i have actually started

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that this character is fictional who i created and in not real just like a movie character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that making this world a better place is impossible based on my limited perception without even giving it a chance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into this character as a form of self defence to protect my ideas and beliefs and out of fear of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want change because I fear i will not be able to change and fail so instead of giving it a go i immediately try and bring others down to my level and beliefs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give away my responsibility by saying that nobody can change this world just so that i don't’ have to do anything

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the truth that I cannot change the world - that no one person can change the world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that i can only change myself and then live as an example to others and proof to others that change is possible and then through that as each one change themselves one becomes many - and with many all together we can make this world a  better place

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shy away from taking self responsibility and to believe that it is not possible for all to work together and to believe that nobody can change who they are - not realizing that the belief is based on nothing because i haven't even attempted to change myself to see for myself what is possible and what is impossible

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am the change - that who i am can determine everything and that I actually have the power to change the world by changing myself and to live as an example

I commit myself to stop the character saying ''you cant change the world''

I commit myself to realize that i am the example and proof that change is possible

I commit myself to live as an example to others and to show that you can change the world by changing yourself

I commit myself to stop saying things are impossible without giving it a go to see for myself first

I commit myself to realize that my perceptions are limitations and that mu beliefs are not real and invalid and not to listen to them anymore

I commit myself to stop wanting to bring others down to my level just so that i don’t have to change

I commit myself to stop the fear of change and to realize that the only way this world will improve is through change

I commit myself to stop the backchat which i allow to give up my responsibility.