Day 106 - Anger

When I become angry or irritated because of something that is happening to me – like somebody doing/saying something that I take personally and want to lash out at them – all common sense goes out the door and my actions become unreasonable.

Its feels like I’m stuck in a sort of mode that I hold on to, and while in this mode I simply become nasty. Thoughts run through my head where I portray myself as superior to the person who made me angry and how I am always right and the person is wrong.
Now when I step out of this mode, I can see my mistake.
But when im in this mode, I am right and everybody else is wrong.  

This is a reaction that is not directed, because my actions and words are directed by the anger.
Instead of directing the anger into a self directive action where the words I speak will consider all that is involved at that moment and that it will be supportive and according to what is best for all.

It is not to stop anger, but to direct yourself, instead of being dire by anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be overcome with anger where I do not have control over what I say

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when someone says something that offends me to take it personally and react in anger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the anger is real - not realizing that it originates from a thought - which has no substance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lash out at people and become completely unreasonable when I’m angry.

More on this tomorrow

How i Came to Desteni

How I came to Desteni

I was born and raised a christian. Prayed every night and went to Sunday church. It was at my last 2years of school that I basically stopped being a full Christian meaning I only said I was to avoid conflict with people and parents. I was selective in terms of what I believed the bible said.

I was my last year of school and by that time my sister sunette already met Bernard and Esteni. Throughout that year sunette helped out with driving me and my younger sister to school and I remember sunette sometimes talking about various points regarding what they are doing. I did find it kind of strange but it did not bother me because it made sense. I was pretty much apathetic towards everything back then.

I met Bernard the first time when I was out with a friend at the mall. I saw sunette eating at a restaurant with Bernard and them so went to say hello. Sunette commented that I am a musician and play drums and then Bernard suggested I should give LJ some drum lessons.

That is how I met LJ. So I came by 2 a week giving drum lessons. It was about 2 or 3 months after I finished school that I was forced to look at what I want to do for the rest of my life. I was still living with my parents and I needed to ‘’get a life’’ so to speak . Then one day Bernard asked me what direction I want to take in life. I had no idea. After giving him a blank stare as a response I then said I want to do something with music. Sunette already moved in and lived here with everybody so Bernard suggested I could move in and be a music tutor as well as a schooling tutor. I was eager to do so and moved in 3 days later.

That was 5 years ago. And that is where my world changed. I learned common sense. How I learned self responsibility – that I was ultimately responsible for my thoughts feelings and actions. That I cannot blame or judge another. I learned the meaning of true power - if I want to change I am the one that has to make that change. And I alone have the power to do so. I saw for the first time how truly fucked up existence is and how we are all trapped in a cleverly designed system to keep us from ever realizing what is really going on.

Heaven On Earth:

I used to say that line allot ‘’ as above so below’’. And if we look at how bad shit is on earth, imagine how bad shit is in heaven.

An Equal Money System would be heaven on earth. Heaven being freedom from fear and abuse. That is what our current world system is based on – fear and abuse. It functions on the suffering of many to benefit the few. And we created it – this wonderful world. Now we are entering the stage of consequence and we have trapped ourselves with our greed and desire.

Now Millions suffer everyday and we live in a world that is not worth saving. And that must end.

Money is the goal and with Equal Money System Life would be the goal. We will move from survival to actual living. I saw for the first time a way where an Equal World is actually possible. And rather complaining about this world I am standing up to become that change and investigating solutions to solve all this bullshit we have on earth. And the cool thing is that we as humanity can do this. We can create a heaven on earth for every being. Once and for all end all forms of abuse that exist in this world.

That is why I stand for a Equal Money system – because none are free until all are free.

001 Practical Living with Equal Money and the Social Changes to come
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_1pmi90NPg

Principle and Personality
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8NOZZBG7NM

Silently we Suffer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiunRgxTjYI

Self Forgiveness is the Key to Equality Sep 2
http://youtu.be/ralDonhPJBQ

Kurt Cobain 2 from the Afterlife: DESTENI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyQx8-HwaVc

Adolf Hitler series:
http://www.desteni.co.za/videos/series/4/hfTJGAVMCDk

Waking Up and Becoming Aware of the Mind in Process Support
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTa596uX ... ture=email

9. Desteni I Process is Leadership Training
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iHlBa3gJv1U

1. BEGINNING of Creation
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oXZE0eoqUw